So I had already done Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred Level 1 for two weeks. Even though I have skipped two weeks, maybe three. I didn't want to start over, so I did Level 2 today. O...M...G...That was intense! I was sweating and panting like crazy! Getting my water in should be no problem after that! If I do that for two weeks along with this diet and the supplements, I am BOUND to see a difference.
So far the diet has been kind of restricting because all of the foods are fat free and sugar free. I am just not used to the taste of that. But it's really not bad...just different. I am going to make a template for my diet based on the one that was provided to me by the weight loss clinic. I am going to include exercise and water intake on that template so that I can get a good overall picture of what I am doing. That way, if i stop losing, or if I just have a bad week, I can look back to a good one and try to fix it. I really hope I can stick to this. I really want to lose weight and too look good in a bathing suit! I hope I can wear one of my swimsuits in a couple of weeks on the camping trip and not be totally embarrassed! LOL (We are camping on a beach area...well right next to it) Plus I really want to be around for a long time for my kids.
I also want to exude confidence and show them how to be confident. I do not want them to suffer the fate I had growing up with no self confidence. It has followed me into adulthood and I am still trying to shake it. It has shaped who I am, and in some ways that is good and in ways it is bad. I missed out on a lot of opportunities and I have had people use me and abuse me because of it. I really want to overcome that. It triggers my depression and kills my sense of self worth. And the craziest part is that for the most part it stems from my negative self image because of my weight. Well, that and my insane need for perfection. But that I have tamed quite a bit, so I think I can get over that.
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