My day to day life and adventures along the way to losing weight and growing old gracefully!
Monday, April 15, 2013
My Children are Killing My Diet
Right now they are grating on my nerves like fingernails on a chalkboard.....Don't get me wrong, I love them dearly, but I need a break. I haven't had a real break in....I don't even remember when. My son has not had a nap and refuses to take one, yet he is listening to me about like a deaf-mute and getting into and destroying everything. And my daughter and my son are both whining and hollering and fussing over and about everything! I have a massive headache. I tried to give myself a five minute time out (more than that and they would destroy the whole house!), but that definitely did not work, especially since I could still hear them bickering and whining. I have ADD, for real, so I cannot concentrate and can't get anything done around here. I told my fiance that I wanted to go to Sweet Tomatoes to eat dinner, but I think I will nix that idea. I can't go with a toddler who hasn't slept and a four year old in a bad mood. I think I would run out of the restaurant and just keep running. Gimped up foot or not. So I caved. I went back to my tried and trusted way of dealing with stress...I ate. I ate foods I shouldn't be eating. And they tasted so good and I felt better for about five minutes, which was more relief than I had from anything else. I had a small bag of Doritos and an oatmeal cookie. I know...terrible for my diet. I totally killed my whole day of dieting for five minutes of relief. But I am still debating on whether it was worth it or not. I am that frustrated/annoyed/stressed. I just do not have anything that relieves my stress to any degree other than eating. It's pathetic...sad even. My fiance says, "Get a hobby." But I don't know what I want to do. I lose interest in things so quickly. Plus I feel like it would cause more stress because the kids would keep me from doing my hobby, or my son would destroy whatever I was working on. I need to make school my hobby (I'm getting behind) but it's so hard to concentrate with the kids yelling and me constantly getting on them about things. I know my life isn't that hard, especially compared to others' lives, so why does it feel so incredibly impossible most of the time? I just don't understand.
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Would it have helped for your fiance to stay with the kids last night while you went to Sweet Tomatoes by yourself for a quiet dinner and a break? Sometimes when my stepkids are working my nerves, I just need to get away from them and the noise for a while.
ReplyDeleteI don't know. Sometimes I reach the point of no return for me. It happened again last night. I reach that point that no matter what happens after that, I am already in "eat mode." I took a time out and actually walked outside for a few minutes. But I need to find a real solution to deal with my stress effectively.
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